STEFANIA

Photo by Enso Expeditions all rights reserved.  By: Enso Expeditions 4 MIN READ.

Photo by Enso Expeditions all rights reserved. 

By: Enso Expeditions

4 MIN READ.

Ever since then I encourage everyone, especially women to travel alone.

September 2015 was the first time I did my first solo trip, it was to Morocco. I had to do this last minute trip because my student visa expired. So I had to get out of the European continent to come back with a tourist visa.

I’m never going to forget the moment I woke up and was getting ready to go. I was super nervous, because even though I had plenty of contact with the Arab culture, I was still going to a new country with new people. Naturally, I felt that as a female traveling alone in an Arab country might be a bit risky. But I applied what my life has taught me, to believe in myself and my inner strength.

The first day walking around Marrakesh was very tough, very overwhelming. It was very hot, I was wearing shorts and I had pink bright hair. I’m calling attention and people are saying shit to me. At first, I was very naïve, I would sit and talk to people, but in reality they just wanted me to buy stuff, which is hard for me to say no.

After the first day, I met some people at the hostel whom I went to the Sahara with. It was such a surreal moment for me, riding the camel over the desert while the sun was setting. Such a great experience. I never thought I would do that, never mind alone.

The trip was great, not so much because of what I saw, tasted, and experienced, but more because after the trip I realized that I could do whatever I set myself to do because I do have the strength to overcome anything.

Ever since then I encourage everyone, especially women to travel alone.

We women grow up with this idea that we can’t, that we are weak, that we always need people.

You know, every other trip I’ve had, and every other place I’ve seen has been great. But this one in particular, because it was the first time I went somewhere alone, completely changed my life, because thanks to that I am now able to take this new step, of moving to Asia, of completely changing my life, because I know I can handle it.

[Contemplates]

I really think that because of my upbringings I was never able to create an attachment to a physical thing, whether that is a house or something more abstract like a culture or land. As much as I feel very patriotic of Venezuela there is a part of me that knows that when I’m there I’m an alien. Even when I’m in Curacao, I’m not really from Curacao. So the notion of home has been very difficult for me to understand, and I have turned that into creating an attachment to people. My attachment, my sense of home comes from my family, or the partner I’m with, or my friends.

But as I’ve grown up I have also realized that you can’t do that.

Because people come and go, and [contemplates] you know I can’t be attached to my family because we are far away. I still love them and I’m still with them, but it’s that physical attachment of security.

I have created my own home within me, my own comfort zone is within me, and it is not a city, it’s not a house, it is not a person, it’s me. Proving to myself that I am all I need has been very important. It’s an ongoing process, though. Right now I am struggling with that because I leave on Tuesday and I feel very comfortable at the moment, I feel like you guys are my family [smiles]. So I’m indulged in this little bubble right now, that I’m so holding on to. Many times I find myself falling back to that comfort, and I actually think that [pauses] Tuesday, when I leave to Asia for 8 months on my own, will be that realization for me.

This is my challenge this is my journey.

I am so grateful to have so many wonderful people in my life who love me and support me, but I’m on my own. Knowing that I am home gives me strength, it is something I have internalized and will now be put to test.

I feel that this is the only way to not be scared. So many people don’t travel, don’t get out of their comfort zone because of that fear. ‘Am I going to be safe?’ So when you think, ‘yes you are’, because the strength is within you, and home is within you, you can go ahead and do it.

So jump, just do it, don’t think about it. Buy that plane ticket, pack your bags and go. You are never going to know until you try it. Accept yourself, accept the fear, because it’s inevitable, we need fear in our life. But believe in yourself, and just do it.

Everything in life must be balanced.

I don’t want to make it seem like fuck everyone, fuck everything, all you need is yourself. No. But we grow up so conditioned to think that we cannot survive unless we depend on others. I remind myself that ‘yes I’m strong but there is no problem in asking for help.’

Oftentimes we fear what people might think of us. But you know what? Wipe your ass with what they think of you. Believe you are doing good, because if you do good you will receive good.

Indeed I’m afraid of being exposed to this new place and what people are going to think. But I will just smile, and if the person smiles back great, if the person doesn’t its ok. We need to understand that everyone has their own little world.

I read this thing once: “The key to happiness is to not personalize things.”

Again, everything in life is a balance, so don’t let anyone step on you because you teach others how they're suppose to treat you.

So always set your boundaries, and demand, that sounded kind of Jamaican [laughs] demand respect.  

 

Get Social With Us


More Stories


Our Expeditions